memories of us =)

perhaps, every girl's dream is to have a perfect fairytale lovelife.
to marry your first love and last till the end with him =)
going through thick and thin together.
overcoming barriers and trusting each other.
is that possible?
or is that just an illusion?
for me, it isnt any different.
i wish for the perfect man to come into my life
and give me happiness.

when i broke up with him*,
of course i felt sad but,
come on wads the use of crying over spilt milk?
i admit that i really took things for granted that time,
but i was still young so i didnt realize that i did wrong
although i've long given up hope on him*,
and told myself that i can live a carefree life alone too,
i think i was lying to myself.

at first, it was very bad.
wherever i go,
memories that we had at the particular place flows back
but as time passes,
i was more used to being alone.
i thought i had grew up,
i thought that maybe really i dont need someone
to be always be with me,
i can be alone too.
i had this thinking for very long until recently,
perhaps, its true to a large extent
that every girl's dream is to have someone
to care for her and love her
and treat her like a precious gem

i know that even though i am happy as it is now,
sometimes i still need that special someone to be there for me.
like when i really face problems,
i know that there are some true friends out there
that really care about me,
but when i look thru my phone book,
i realized that i can call no one,
that "someone" is missing

*girls*,
its easy to say that being single is great,
but sometimes we just need that "someone"
to be there for us.=)

life is just so unfair.
should i say that ?
i dont know.
___________

I'll be waiting for you, here inside my heart .
Eventhough its all wishful thinking on my part.
Wherever you go,
whatever you do,
I will be right here waiting for you.
Whatever it takes,
or how my heart breaks,
I will be right here waiting for you.



25 july 07
10.10pm